It’s Red Season: Taylor Swift is a Badass.

I snagged this photo from the internet but … CREDIT: COURTESY OF STARBUCKS; SPENCER PLATT / GETTY IMAGES

How can you not jump up and scream:


When you see such an icon doing something so seemingly simple yet, amazing you can’t help but let that motivate you. (at least I can’t — I will take motivation where I can these days)

Okay, I will admit it. I was not a HUGE Taylor Swift fan in the early 2000s.

I was busy listening to dirty base, busting a move on the dance floor of some seedy underground club all hyped up on fun pills.

But years have past and so have my past times and my music taste.

It wasn’t that I didn’t really know about Ms. Swift but just wasn’t my thing. I felt old and slightly disconnected for the lyrics.

I will also admit I was just to damn cool to listen to anything top 40 on the radio. I realize now how much I was missing out.

I have been hearing rumblings of the rerelease of Red for some time but I will be honest — I didn’t get it.

But, I do now.

The long and the short of it is that Taylor didn’t own her music. Pretty common in the music industry but it doesn’t make it right. Apparently the rights to her music had been sold in some shady deal to some shady people without her approval and without her being asked if she wanted to buy the rights (when she had the money to do so).

Taylors response was to fight back and rerelease her old albums with complete control. She owns the tracks. The music is hers.

(Taylor’s Version)

There is nothing more badass than this.

In a world that is so fucked up for so many reasons, watching someone powerful and famous take back her life in this manner is inspiring.

I don’t know if this is something that is happening to me in older life. But seeing people making it to the other side, with grace and greatness is so inspiring.

I can’t even imagine the power Taylor must feel in this truth. She has made everything seems so possibly.

She has told the world that you can love hard, love fall and be a basic and be heartbroken and still be amazing. You can be everything the world makes fun of because who the hell cares. Frankly, I love her for that.

I will never again listen to a Taylor Swift song that isn’t a (Taylor’s Version) and I think the world is following suit.

So get out there, speak your truth, drink your Taylor Latte and go after what you want.

It is 2021 baby — be that badass bitch!

If you were looking for a modern day roll model, for someone to light a spark under your ass, for determination to take control and not let anyone or anything stand in your way. This is it.

In RED, of course.

What To-Do When Anxiety Kicks in and Now Your house is a Mess with Unfinished Tasks & Projects.

Today I am in the Bell Jar.

My mental health is in the shitter.

Everything is a mess.

There are piles of unfinished projects everywhere.

Anytime I try to sit down and focus I make a running list of 5 million things I need to accomplished and then promptly do nothing.

Today I had to reminded myself to just do one thing that needed to get done.

Start somewhere.

Just one minor thing.

So I put down the cookbook (where I was sat thinking and flipping through everything I wanted to make and film and then wondered if I should map out cooking every recipe in that particular cookbook and wondered if that was a fun idea to work through, even though I would likely never follow through with said plan) and I went and got my camera. The battery is dead. So I got the charger and plugged it in. If I want to film a video then I need a fully charged camera.

This is how a small glimpse into why it is hard to get things done. Every tasks seems to have so many moving parts.

There are so many people that get worked up in the planning and the dreaming that they forget about the doing and sometimes … sometimes you just need to take one baby step in activity.

Just one thing.

You can do it too. Just one thing.

I am paralyzed in thought today at planning all the things I want to do. All the sudden I have a working title for a book. I have a giant birthday list of things I want to accomplish — this is the 5th article I started on Medium — so 5 tabs open just for Medium alone ( if you reading this yay me, I actually finished one and posted it). I have also decided on a fun YouTube goal and I finally brought my roller skates out of my car to only roll around my living room. They have now been left unattended in the middle of my kitchen (because roller skating in the house is hard).

Thankfully I am home alone.

Sometimes you need to create the chaos to sort out everything that needs to get done. So you can see your mind scattered everywhere with excitement and but no follow through — it feels almost therapeutic to see what actually needs to get accomplished.

I think somewhere in the back on my mind a know these 2 things:

  1. When the day starts in the bell jar the solution is to find one little thing to get accomplished; even if it is a minor, inconsequential task. I just need to take on one things to propel me into action.
  2. It is okay to feel overwhelmed by life sometimes. It is okay to just stop and really take in my coffee, every delicious sip. It is okay that some days mental health wins and sometimes you need to take it easy on yourself, The task lists I make are longer than the amount of hours I have in a day. I need to remind myself to get to the big stuff I need to also take things one step at a time.

This is just a reminder to anyone else out there that gets all scattered and busy and anxious — sometimes you need to switch to decaf.

Sometimes you just need to start with one little thing.

Sometimes you need to stop and do the 1 thing that is the most important thing on the list.

If you are still struggling 20 months into a pandemic — so am I.

You are not alone.

Feeling my anxiety disappear by accomplishing one small task at a time is reward enough some days. Everything will get done.

And if it doesn’t — you will march on.

3 Habits To Change To Shift From Content Consumer To Content Creator.

There is a massive section on my vision board all about creativity, work, and the direction I want to take my career path. 

I also created a list of my ideal job and the quailites that I want to create in that job. (I mean if you are going to manifest you need to know what you want, right?)

I have noticed that one of the BIGGEST parts of my dream job section is all about me using my creative skills. 

On my vision board there is a HUGE section on writing — a lot of focus on writing a book and writing a cookbook and being a blogger, vlogger anything ogger. There is many mentions of content creation and doing something social media like.

Again — using video editing skills and filming and photography and all that stuff. 

I clearly have a vision for where I want to create for myself for a job.

Right now though, I am a content consumer. I watch hours of content everyday. I am watching on Tiktok and on Youtube and on Instagram. I scroll through the twitter. I read on Medium.

I think that this consumption of media makes this type of work look easy.

I also think it is making me feel bad about myself. (Seriously,  light bulb moment while I am writing this.)

To mitigate this I have implemented these 3 strategies to help me move to the sphere of creation instead of consumption:

  • Create first. You need to focus on writing or filming or take photos first. You need to work on the draft, work on the edits or publish the post OR brainstorm ideas and collect your thoughts before wasting hours consuming other peoples thoughts. I keep a tab in my ‘notes’ app just to keep running ideas of things I could be creative around. Focusing on creating first and consuming second is a HUGE shift in how I have been spending my time. But, my work first. 
  • When I consume other peoples content. I like, comment and often subscribe. I want to put out into the universe that I am invested in the creative community. Be it Youtube or Tiktok or Medium or even on my blog — if I read it I have a reaction to it. Shifting to a creator means shifting to being a member of the creation community and that means participation. To build a community you must be a part of the community.
  • Limit my social media consumption time. I know it sounds strange but the truth is — my best ideas are often come from a source off the internet. I need to remember to read the 100s of books I have purchased. And to socialize with the outside world. Be out in my community and taking everything in. Creativity can be sparked by anything but I find the better ideas are not taken from someones’ work. 

That is it — that is how. Shifting to creation instead of consumption is a different way to approach social media use. 

The truth is action must be taken. You don’t grow a following by not posting. You don’t make connections by not writing. 

What strategies have you implemented to make the shift from consumption to creation? 

How I Learned to Trust the Universe

This is a picture of me and a collage of everything that is on my universal mind right now. Drop me a follow if you are reading this caption. K, thanks.

A couple of weeks ago I applied for what I thought was my dream job. I honestly felt like everything I had done in my life in terms of work so far was catered … custom built for this position.

I couldn’t fathom them not hiring me.

Today I got the ‘sorry we will not be moving forward with your application’ letter.

It stung. I thought I would at least be in the running; maybe an interview. (feel the slight break in my heart that emerged for a split second there)

But instead of feeling down about it or emailing them demanding to know why they chose another candidate.

I am comfortable in trusting my instincts and gut and knowing the universe has something else, something better in store for me.

It took me a long time to get it — the whole universe has my back thing. It has taken me an extra long time in life to realize that there is no point in stressing because there is a universal plan for me and that is just what is going to unfold.

(I will just say here my universe might be your spirit or your god or your allah — just go with the thought process)

I keeping trying to aligning myself with the things that I want and eventually the things that are supposed to emerge will emerge. (so NOT sitting around doing nothing and gaining no skills. I am trying to better myself for the things I want.)

How did I get here?

Therapy, medication, anxiety managing tools and multiple job losses making me hone in on what I really want and step away from the stuff I don’t.


When I write it in a pretty sentence it makes it seem so easy to achievable. But in a MASSIVE healing journey that I have been on the last few years this is infact one of the many positive things that have emerged.

But it took work.

It took trusting myself.

It took managing my expectations of things outside my control.

It took realizing that not everything was meant for me BUT there are things that are.

It took me accepting my current situation and figuring out what path to take.

See it is important YOU stay routed in your own realities. It is important to figure out the things that YOU want. It is important to have a vision board or a goals list or a bucket list AND then actively try to achieve the goals on the list.

It is important to not just do what everyone else wants you to do but to have passions and interests and things that make YOUR HEART SING.

When I really think about this job I applied for a few things emerge.

Taking that job would mean giving up on my vision board dream.

Taking that job would mean me being distracted for trying to create my freelance career in a time when I could really make a go of it.

Taking that job would mean giving up on other things that I am not ready to give up on.

So while for a split second I had a little ache in my heart of disappointment the universe was right, I shouldn’t be aligned with that job.

I should continue knowing and trusting that the right path is emerging.

Dave Hollis Goes Off the Rails on Instagram Live.

I will openly admit I am not a fan of Rachel Hollis nor a fan of Dave Hollis.

They just seem like a bunch on entitled twats.

Ya, I said it.

I have read a handful of Rachel Hollis books. They have some great stuff in them. The truth is though — her being on the bestsellers list simple has to do with the amount of fans she has connected with for being ‘just like her’.

We have learned this was a lie. (yes college age me watching Maury Povich)

Rachel and Dave got divorced early in the pandemic; which came as a bit of a surprise for a lot of their following. Then all the sudden Rachel was publishing a book.

This was around the time that I checked out of Hollis co.

I have now become a lurker of all the things they do that are just appalling. I mean come on; I am just like everyone else I love the salaciousness of when people do horrible things in the public eye.

Fast forward to Dave Hollis publishing a second book. He got a book deal because … you guessed it, Rachel.

Dave has his social media career because of Rachel. 100%

She amassed a following and got so big that they brought Dave on to help. Together they started doing all sorts of public conference and events. He started his own social media and gained a following because of her.

Dave published a book and then another book.

I did not spend $18.00 to buy his book. I have zero interest in what his privileged ass has to say. But I am onboard to hear about his public bullying of people to buy his book.

He is making HUGE promises by proclaiming it will change peoples lives and get people jobs. Telling broke American to spend their last dimes to support him sounds a bit like a MLM nightmare. He then went on to say that if you are following him and don’t buy his book you are essentially a piece of shit.

Here is the thing — after watching a recording of his live stream and watching some commentaries one can only assume that the reason he went off the rails is because his book isn’t doing as good as he thought it would.

The live stream shows some serious true colours of him as a person.

What I don’t understand is why people continue to follow someone that straight up tries to bully them?

Why do people follow an entitled ass?

Lately I have been thinking about this a lot — there are a lot of people on social media, influencers if you will, that are straight up horrible people. Why does the public allow them to stay in that position?

I mean come on — the guy basically tried to sell you his dirty socks and you think that is someone who is humble and grateful for you, the follower?

No — it is a mockery of the system. A mockery of his position in life. A mockery of you and everything he hates about you. And how he can leverage that, not give a shit about you and still be successful.

What do you think about that?

Sound off below.

The Cabin. Unique, Alternative Structures in Alberta. Airbnb Experience.

I grew up in a prairie city.  I wouldn’t say I know all about farming life, but I know a bit.

I got into tiny houses and alternative housing years ago when I realized that I truly wanted an unconventional life.

Then I started to get really interested in alternative structures – tiny homes, van homes, those homes that are made from tires and mud — Earthships, repurposing strange materials into housing structures like grain bins, silos and old depilated airplanes. I am just fascinated with repurposing.

So when I saw this silo/grain bin turned into a glamping oasis I had to book in for the weekend. 

I am not going to lie I acted on instinct, and I acted on emotion and I acted on trends because I knew I needed to be at one of the coolest Airbnb’s in Alberta. 

This Airbnb is exactly as the photos show. Its structure is a reclaimed grain bin that has had some repairs done and then reworked into a functional tiny home in the middle of the prairies – a silent retreat for relaxation.

In this year of not being able to really travel much internationally I have taken it opening myself up to exploring some of the lessor known places around Alberta. This led me to Mossleigh and to this reclaimed grain bin to stay for the weekend. 

This place is perfect for the solo adventurer or a couple wanting a quiet weekend away. It sleeps 3 (2 upstairs in a double and one down on a futon) but, in my opinion, more comfortably sleeps 2. 

Lee, one of the hosts, told me the story of this dented grain bin that lived on the yard for quite some time and how he had offered it to a couple of potential owners on the condition they needed to transport the bin off the property but … it never ended up happening. 

Eventually they decided to build their own oasis. 


This is probably about as rural Alberta as I have been in years. It was about 10 minutes past the hamlet of Mossleigh. There were some gravel roads, and I am not even going to pretend me driving my 2-door city girl FIAT didn’t get lost. But according to Lee and Trish I was the only one ever to get lost trying to find the place.

Lee came and rescued me in Mossleigh. Thankfully.

I think being at the cabin just let me sit in possibility, sit in my creativity and sit in my solitude.

The bin is decked out in true country style – the way you would expect horses loving farmers to decorate and that is part of its beauty and charm and amazingness.

You are tucked away in the back corner of the property away from the house. The yard is surrounded by acres of land that are used by the family. If you are looking for quiet this is the place. There is a fairly large garden that you are welcome to dig up for eats and a wall of sunflowers giving you privacy.

When I was chilling on a blanket on the grass reading my book, I noticed a deer watching me. Probably waiting for me to leave so they could get in on the garden. 

There are 5 barns cats that roam the property, but they didn’t really approach me. The dog, Boone – it was instant love. He definitely came for snuggles and pats many times.

My favourite part of the cabin was the outdoor shower. There is nothing quite like standing naked outside with hot water sprinkling down from the shower head while the light breeze dries your skin cool to the touch. The smell of the water hitting the concrete pad under your feet is like the smell after a rain. I don’t think I have had a shower quite this amazing before in my life (except for the time I used a bathhouse in Dawson City and boiled my own hot water to pour in buckets on my head inside a sauna structure). This shower alone is definitely worth the visit.

The place is set up for the typical weekender. There is 2 burner hot plate and microwave inside, apartment sized fridge — coffee maker, dishes and all the things you need to make smores over the outdoor firepit. There is even a BBQ if that is your jam.

This was the most perfect experience for a weekend get away.

You can find this place listed on Airbnb linked here (no, not an affiliate link) 


If you are interested in a virtual tour. Check out my video on YouTube.

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Day 2 of Doing Things to Achieve the Dreams on my Vision Board

Day two of me doing things to actively achieve something on my vision board.

Okay random reader on WordPress – I must share that today was a beautiful day 2 on my mission to get rad.

I took the last few weeks off the gym because I really hurt my back. Like hurt my back the kind of way that it hurts to sit, stand and laydown. I have been to the chiro a few times to fix it, but I am in some pain. I did the mature thing today and stood in line with all the retirees at Shoppers and got myself a heating pad. The reason that is important is because this morning I got my ass to the gym. While kickboxing this morning I was feeling great. Throwing punches like a champ, roundhouse kicks and high intense hooks – I was a machine. 

But I am paying for it now while I lay in my bed trying to edit a YouTube video and sum up my day 2. I can hardly move around. Heat pad activated. 

Today I achieved something on my list for better health – getting my ass to the gym.

I also spent a hot minute booking myself into the physio therapist to actually figure out how to stop this back stuff from happening. Because If I am going to spend the winter repairing a van, I am going to need to be able to use my body. 

Also, while making phone calls – I GOT A TEMP JOB working at the election. (In case you are reading this, and you are not Canadian – The federal election is September 20th, 2021). So, two days of work that is not unemployment. Also – my papers came to start declaring my unemployment which is good news because … money.

I finished editing a YouTube video which you will see tomorrow. Woot!

I booked all sorts of self-care appointments, and I organized my month. 

Because I truly believe that when you self-care the shit outta you – things just are better.  You need to love yourself.

I have done so much reading on manifesting and it is crazy to me the amount of people that think they can just keep writing out their dreams and never work for them. Heck – I am living proof that that doesn’t work. You need to really believe you can achieve it. Focus on the goal and chip away at it. That is why I started this – trying to take steps in the right direction of making things come true. Instead of sitting here waiting for good things to happen I am going to make them happen.

Today was a great day of taking care of business. I am proud of myself for working on my Carol projects and not letting a sore back make me feel like it is okay to lay in bed watching serial killers on Netflix. It is so easy to get lost in the world of TV and YouTube – watching everyone else achieve the things that I want and not work on that stuff myself.

Anyway – that is all for day 2.

Ohhhh one more things – if you are reading this – I would love a like and a subscribe. It doesn’t cost you much, but it sure helps me out. Love and Light, C 

Also – I am writing this series on Medium and am undecided if I should post it on here as well – if you think this might be an interesting journey please throw me a like so I know OR you can find me on Medium.


I’m about 6 weeks into my new job and tonight I am online searching for vacation rentals in Delray Beach, Florida.

Or maybe Boca Raton.

I’m going to walk you through how I got here. Because isolation has led me to an interesting place.

It is the last day in March 2021. It has been a year to the date that I worked my last pairing, a redeye flight to Toronto, Ontario.

I was then furloughed for 10 months before I got a hit on a job application.

About 3 months ago I got offered a job with my provincial health care organization to track positive cases and exposures related to the current pandemic. I didn’t actually start working until mid-February (about 2.5 months after my initial offer of employment). Just another added frustration in months of frustrations that have been forced upon me in the last year.

2020; what a nightmare … that continues to live on.

My Province has been fairly locked down since Christmas, so the daily cases weren’t high the first few weeks of my training.


Less cases meant more downtime at work. At first, we had to do team cases and /or were paired off to do cases. Then came heaps of extra learning about virus tracking and other pandemics. But truthfully, I also used some of that free time to cruise YouTube on the side. YouTube is a rabbit hole and that landed me on videos about venomous reptiles and hillbilly Floridan’s.

YouTube suggested this for me, and they were not wrong. Old me would have pretended not to like this type of redneck shit but I’m invested. These YouTubers are fascinating.

I digress.

I have historically not been that interested in travelling in the United States; in particular with the past government. But things change, I have changed. And if I could be boating and beer drinking and hillbillying right now — ummmmmm, sign me the fuck up.

It is hard to really sum up how much growth and development has happened for me in the last year — mostly because I have barely caught up to myself. I haven’t ever forced myself to slow down and really take a look, my life has mostly been one messy shit storm of bad decisions to the next. Fun. But doesn’t really let you dig deep and figure things out. I have never really slowed down enough to deal with any of the traumas. I just worked, and worked and fucked around knowing all this time that no one was going to fix me but myself, but I still refused to dive in. Who has time for that shit?

I just always figured things would turn out how they were supposed to but if I learned anything in the last year it is that things can blow up and your life can change at the blink of an eye. I have also learned that in order to really truly get what I want — I need to do the damn work. I just need to fucking start, get out there, and do.

Watching some of these Floridians online made me realize some things that I never really spent time focusing on before. Which when I type that sounds just damn foolish. But when you see people being genuine at their core and living their authentic self without giving a fuck — and you are in the place of growth and forging a new you — that shit hits hard.

I have been to some places. I have meet the dopest people. I have friends in all sorts of beautiful places and walks of life and I cherish those people and those friendships for exactly what they are. But when you realize you haven’t been truthful to yourself — it makes you questions the journey. I have just realized my lack of truth to myself and that years of people pleasing led me to a life wading in this grey area. What I want for myself and the judgement that others were placing on me and my ideas — that shit wasn’t lining up.

I was always so concerned that if my ideas didn’t line up with other people’s ideals I would be left to walk alone and I am tired of walking alone.

Believe it or not: I am scared. Scared of trying new things. Scared of rejection. Scared of being alone. Scared of not being alone. Scared of losing myself. Just scared.

Yes, me — someone who has lived on 4 continents is scared to try new things. I don’t ever want to appear like I can’t do something. I have a massive fear of failure and looking bad. So much so that I have pigeonholed my life to make it easy to not have to do that. I realized that I have taken on some very judgmental behaviors because of my fear. Because making fun of everything and refusing to commit to anything — lets you please everyone around you. How bizarre that I developed that mindset?


This new development — ya, I forced on myself because 2020. It fucked me up. It fucked me up because for the first time in a long time I am at a place of growth where I realize how important it is to speak my truth, and to say no to things I do not want to do, and if that costs me friendships, those people where never friends.

Seeing youtubers just living their lonesome truths is just downright inspiring.

The pandemic has made me realize I want more and the only person that has ever stop that from happening is me, my life decisions, and my fear of standing out. But spending all this time watching people online has just made me see we are all kind of the same – floating through life trying to figure it out. It has really made me see through peoples tattoos and piercings and strange hair and made me see through people need to look and be just like what society tells them to look like. It’s made me see through all their fronts that I used to take as absolutes.

I take the opinions of others to heart. I listen to other people’s opinion and take that as the truth and that, friends, that shit fucks you up.

Being isolated for so long has forced me into dealing with mental health issues, anxiety issues, it has had me face addiction issue head on. It forced me to look at myself and my friendships and relationships in a different manner. Personal growth and development are inevitable in a time of isolation and lack of stimulation. It forces you to pay attention and to deal with yourself. As someone who has heavily leaned into narcotics in the past, the last place I wanted to end up at the end of all of this was with another round of nonstop avoidance of my life. And that people, in some moments, has been a really difficult choice.

I sat for months working through turmoil myself — until I finally found someone that I could talk to about how to show up as me today instead of the me from 10 years ago.

How to allow myself to be who I am and not who I was. How to really shut the door to a different chapter, how to clear out space for whatever adventure life brings next — and hopefully soon I will learn all the tools to stop being so scared.

I am so far removed from where I was and this down time has allowed me to crack open a vault of feelings that I never dealt with. Your girl has been reliving some heavy trauma this last year

But you know what is sexy as fuck? Dealing with your shit and working on yourself.

And today Friends — I just needed a fucking debrief.

Because if there is something I never did enough of in my life so far it is taking care of myself.

Lately it has just made me wonder how many other people are out there avoiding and not going after their dream and just kind of sliding by afraid to define who they really are —

I certainly know that this last year wasn’t just an annoyance for me but a wakeup call forcing me to redirect.

The truth is — I may not get my job back. I may have to have a new career. I may want other things now that align with the person I want to be. I may want a million other things — what I do know though is that it all starts with me.

So, friends — why did watching an eccentric dude, completely tattooed, and modified resonate with me? Because he is real. He is just insanely in love with himself and his passion.  But not in the way that you think makes someone full of themselves – just in the authentic excitement someone has, their passion that radiates through the screen. He treats his partner like a queen and that respect  – that is the kind of humans I want to align myself with. That is exactly where I need to start — that genuine love for myself. I get to figure out me again. I get a chance to have passion and adventures and really figure out the things that I like that keep my soul soaring, my cheeks hurting from smiling so much and the people I want to hug the most.

Now if you were thinking I was going to be a crazy fuck and end this post with a trip to Florida — to go see some ‘gators because personal growth. Well, you wouldn’t be wrong – it is now number one on my list for border re-openings.

I’m booking the tickets, baby, I’m ready for the ride.

‘Wins and Losses’ after a YEAR as an Arbonne Independent Consultant.

The nitty gritty truth is this – I could never be a “Hey Hun, wanna be part of this business opportunity” kind of gal. So right out of the gate this was a losing game for me.

I signed up at Arbonne as a consultant last year. My up-line convinced me straight out the gate to attend online GTC (Global Training Conference). The conference was the perfect introduction to Arbonne. My upline – she is a gem. I love her.

It was the PERFECT time to start out my Arbonne adventure because all the sudden I had time on my hands. Basically, life was going great – I finally quit my second job. I paid off a bunch of debt and now I had lots of free time. I had thought I would run this experiment about making money online. I was calling it the MLM experiment where I would just try and be a #bossbabe and really dive into an experiment I could document. I wanted to see if I could actually be a Arbonne babe. I saw everyone doing it and was certain that I could be that person too (well kinda certain).

I actually remember being in Huatulco for work when I decided it would be fun to join a MLM. I was so excited I filmed a YouTube video and posted it online. A lot of other flight attendants do this kind of work and make some serious money doing it.

So why couldn’t I follow that dream, make some extra cash and start looking like an Arbonne babe?

The flexibility of direct sales/network marketing is exactly what you need as a flight attendant. You can work when you want to work (even from your hotel room when you are all lonely) – you meet tons of people and to top it all off you do something good for your body or good for your skin and in general – easy to sell, right?! This definitely seemed like a win.

I think my biggest downfall was that while I LOVE Arbonne products. I hate trying to convince people to buy something ( an obvious loss). I am HORRIBLE at direct sales. And, I always felt awkward when I saw the look on peoples faces when I even mention that I used an Arbonne product (another thing in the loss category).

It is so interesting that because of the negative social media around Multi Level Marketing – people say no before they even attempt to try a product. You are demonized before you even start (another loss).

Truthfully though – there is an increasingly high statistic for people looking for direct sales jobs with flexible hours, that can be worked from home – so thanks global pandemic.

I truly think that the products are superior but being open minded enough to use them …. that remains to far fetched to be seen for the average anti- MLMer.

Anyway – I am not even going to pretend like that conference wasn’t the most motivational thing I have ever bought a ticket to. The energy was wild. The community is amazing. It made me feel like this kind of work was possible. Seeing the parade of women who made it to National Vice President or Regional Vice Present level, all the woman getting their keys to their Mercedes – Like ya, bitch, I want that. The truth is though less than 1% of people actively involved in a MLM make that kind of success.

I got sucked in because of the energy from the community. I bought the “I WANT IT ALL” package at the GTC – getting all the new and hot products, right out the gate. It was so damn exciting. But I knew I would never be able to be proactive MLMer.

I actually (not so) secretly LOVE Arbonne products.

I have purchased “30 day to Healthy Living” more than once. It is literally fantastic. It got my body feeling great and my digestion feeling on point. Probiotics and probiotics and digestive enzymes; love it. The protein powder is some of my favourite that I have ever tried.

I use the lotions, shower gels and makeup pallet. All of them pretty top notch products.

Face line – beautiful. Worth all the money.

Fizz sticks. Yup. Ever. Damn. Day.

I would recommend any of these products to anyone that asks. But I still never posted about it online. I always felt like it was a major attack on my friends and family. I never wanted to bother people and really felt like if anyone wanted the product they would know that I would be there for them.

I have never even sold one product. I had one person ask me to buy them something under my IC account and I turned them down. So overall – financially this project was a failure.

Wins and losses – definitely a win to be introduced to some amazing products. Definitely a win to meet a positive community. A win to be introduced to positivity but the losses out way that – I have never made a cent with Arbonne. I have spent a lot of money using products. I spent money on A LOT of products. The biggest loss is being a part of something that the internet you feel like is toxic. I truthfully believe people are into MLMs because of the positive mindset and community.

I am not sure if I will sign on for another year. I might for the discount. But only time will tell.

Are you a Arbonne Independent Consultant? successful? Tell me about it.

Also, my not so humble plea that if you want to try any Arbonne products – use my link

Eugenia Cooney is slowly dying while the world watches and nothing is getting done about it.

The role of the influencer is certainly an interesting one. You make videos of yourself and post them online. Eventually you get a following if you are consistent and entertaining enough. The theory is that anyone can do it. There are influencers in all areas, that cover some interesting and not so interesting topics. There are influencers for everyone. Once you reach a large enough audience you can basically market anything. This is primarily how these people make money.

But what if your influence isn’t about what kind of shampoo to buy or what protein powder is best but your influence is fostering an eating disorder with young women?!

Should you be allowed to continue on?

Should you be banned?

Should be have to have warnings on your content?

Should your content be age restricted?

What is your social responsibility as someone that has influence over millions of people watching your content?

Meet Eugenia Cooney.

I want to talk about Eugenia Cooney and her content.

Eugenia is a female Youtuber in her mid 20ies. I want to say 26. She is 5’6″ and last weighed in at 86 pounds.

Let that sink in.

She is visibly incredibly thin and not in the model sexy kind of way. She is thin in the SOMEONE TAKE HER TO THE HOSPITAL kind of way. She is visibly in the throws of an eating disorder.

In a video Shane Dawson did – there was conversation about having spent time in a “treatment centre” however there was never an admittance by her that she had an eating disorder or that there was something to be worried about. (Sidenote: She actually looked really healthy and pretty good on the video after her return from treatment.)

It was truthfully pretty scary that she took to the internet as soon as she returned home instead of taking care of her health and continuing to focus on her health journey.

Recently there is a petition going around to try to get her banned from social media so that she can spend time taking care of herself. Truthfully even with almost 50 000 signatures – it is unlikely that this will make a difference in social media banning her from producing content. It is clear that all she knows as a life is social media influencer. Be it Youtube or Twitch or whatever platform, she spends all of her time making content and showing off her very slender body.

The real truth is that SHE DOES NOT WANT ANY HELP (even though she desperately needs it).

Recently there has been a lot of discussion online about the decline of Eugenias’ health. There has been a resurgence of trying to get her care and a hope that collectively the audience can get her the help she needs and to see her return to a treatment centre. Back a few years ago, Jaclyn Glen put Eugenia in a situation were she was 5150’d and was forced into treatment because of her mental health. A 5150 is a 72 hours psychiatric hold that is involuntary. Once Eugenia was detained she then ended up in treatment for 6 months.

Upon her release she ended up returning to Youtube with a documentary that was orchestrated by Shawn Dawson (with the help of Kati Morton) the video seemed well intentioned but was not put together properly. It left Eugenia to pick up where she left off on social media which inevitably caused her demise and decent back into the grips of her eating disorder.

With 2.2 Million followers she is definitely someone of influence. She is absolutely showing young girls how to be and live as an anorexic. Her cosplay content showcasing her emaciated body should come with trigger warnings and be adult only content. This girl will absolutely lose her life while the world watches.

There have been so many creators try and help her out and it never works. Any type of criticism is received with the notion that people are haters. We, the people, created a world of cancel culture. And this is no different. Eugenia simply cancels anyone that makes a comment she does not like. If some one mentions her weight negatively – she calls them haters. If someone calls her anorexic – she claims she is fine. She talks in a high pitched tone and it appears the sicker she gets the higher pitched her voice becomes.

So what is the solution?

Stop watching in her content. Stop watching. Stop enabling.

Stop supporting the demise of a young woman.

I am truly not sure what the answer should be. I wouldn’t say I am an avid supporter of Eugenia because it isn’t really my interest: cosplay, Japanese animation, characters, anime in general. Just not my vibe. But the entire world is just watching her starve herself with nothing happening. It is crazy.

The truth is addiction and eating disorders are often enabled by people in your immediate life. In order for Eugenia to change there need to be a support system. It is going to be a completely new version of what her life is now, how she lives it and what it will look like without the pressures and ideals of social media. For a woman that makes all her income from being online – that is a HUGE career move. Not only does this affect her and her life but it also affects her family and their lives. It feels doubtful to me that she is NOT financially supporting her parents. So of course they would NOT be onboard to changing her career because their life suffers.

It is kind of like when kid actors get forced into more and more productions because their parents get accustoms to the money they are bringing in. Instead of saving their children’s money they start spending it. They then are requiring their children to continue to work so they can maintain their lifestyle. Selfish if you ask me – but happens all the time.

If you feel like you want to try and help … sign the petition linked here. And stop clicking on her videos.